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A Personal Victory Of Mine :)

I might sound like one of those teen diary blogs for this post, but please bear with me for this. What just happened today was honestly amazing.

So a couple of months ago, I was going through some of my old messages on Google Hangouts, where you can chat to whoever you want on there who has a Google+ account (and yes, I still use Google+). And when I was around fourteen, I used to have a lot of conversations with people around the world. Seriously, I would spend more time on there talking to them than my actual friends. However, I stopped after a while because… I just stopped using it.

So just because I was bored one day, I thought I’d go through some of my old messages again. For shits and gigs.

After going through hundreds of ‘Hi’ comments, I eventually came across these old conversations that I had with a girl called Anna, from Maine. I remember when we used to talk to each other practically every single day for a couple of years, and we always used to flirt with each other.

So I hadn’t replied to her in about two/three years, so I thought I would reply with something like ‘hey’ or ‘do you still remember me? :)’ because I just wanted to see if she would ever reply.

Also, with my social anxiety, I thought this would be a great challenge for me, to try and get back in contact with my friend after all of this time. I was really worried at first, as I didn’t think she would ever remember me, or want to talk to me anymore. But after thirty minutes of debating with myself, I sent the message. What’s the worst that could happen?

I will admit, I had completely forgotten about the message after a week. To be honest, it’s been years since we talked and I had honestly thought that she had moved on.

Until today.

I honestly couldn’t believe it – she ACTUALLY replied to me! I was so shocked! I don’t know how she came across the fact that I had messaged her two months ago, but it was a great feeling.

Like, you have to imagine that this was the first time that I had properly spoken to her since about three or four years ago. At that time, I would have been around fourteen, and she would have been twelve or thirteen? It was crazy.

And even after all of this time, it feels like I only spoke to her only a few weeks ago. It was a surreal feeling to experience.

Literally, it couldn’t have gone any better. We started talking about college (or high school in the States), University, what we wanted to do in the future. We even started talking about books, and reminiscing about some of the messages we used to send each other.o

I suppose that this was a personal victory of mine, too. My last couple of months hasn’t been too great, to be honest. My anxiety has got WAY worse, I’ve thought about suicide to the point where it’s become normal, and now I’m still feeling the side effects of my antidepressants. But with this, I can actually feel proud of myself for overcoming my anxiety this one time, and I feel great at the moment because of it :D

And it just goes to show that if I can talk to someone across the globe for the first time in years, why can’t I talk to my friends who I haven’t spoken to in a couple of days? Just something to think about.

Terrorism Will Never Win

I know it’s not normally something I would post on my blog, but I have to say something.

Last night, on the 22nd May 2017, the UK experinced one of the most horrific terrorist incidents of all time, after an explosion was detonated outside an all-packed Manchester Arena.

At around 10:30 pm, 21,000 Ariana Grande fans began to gather their stuff and leave the arena, when the explosion happened. Confusion quickly led to terror, as people started to leave as fast as they could, climbing over chairs and one another, trying to get out as fast as they could.

And this callous and shocking event has injured 59 people, and taken the lives of 22. Two of those lives lost were 18-year-old Georgina Callander and 8-year-old Saffie Rose Roussos.

That’s what makes this attack even more heartless. THESE WERE FUCKING CHILDREN. Who thought it would be a good idea to ruin the lives of children, INNOCENT CHILDREN, who wanted to have an amazing time with their favourite artist? It makes me sick that there are people out there who would do this.

But terrorism hasn’t destroyed us. It’s brought us closer together. We’ve shared images online of people who haven’t returned home yet, making sure that they are safe. We’ve expressed our condolences towards the victims and their families. That’s the power of social media – it’s brought billions and billions of people together, uniting against terrorism and giving it the middle finger.

No matter what happens, we will always stand together, as a society, and because of this: